Speaking My Mind...again

Hello folks.

So I just wanted to make this journal to let you guys know of what's happening currently. Some of you may know of my relationship with a certain individual on this site, and that we've been pretty good friends with each other, for a few of years as a matter of fact. Some could even say we were inseparable.

But unfortunately, that's no longer the case between us. I am no longer going to associate myself with this individual.

Now this may seem sudden, but months of tension and division has built up to this. I won't get into specifics of what I mean by this, but I'll just say I had friends who were torn apart, forming two groups, and I ended up on my friend's side. It was clear to me, however, that we were the side no one wanted to associate with, and we had no chance of mending the fissure.

Regardless of this, I stayed by my friend's side, partially out of loyalty. This friend had helped me out of a dark place I was in for a time, so I felt attached to them. I didn't care what anyone said, I was sticking with this person. Even after all the accusations people made of them, I believed in my friend, no matter how credible the evidence seemed. I didn't care. They were my friend, and I wasn't leaving their side.

Then they confessed.

They really had done all the things the others had said. They were guilty of this crimes. And I felt like an idiot. I really did. I was sticking up for a liar this entire time. I felt like I had been taken advantage of. That my loyalty to this person was used. It hurt. I mean, it sucks that this person lied to everyone and tried to destroy the other group.

But when you lie to me, it's the last straw.

Not to mention, even after all this, and after this person still called me their friend, they ignored me. They didn't answer my questions. I was practically forgotten. I don't know if it was because they were busy, or if they just didn't care about me anymore. Regardless, either one hurts. I've been ignored and lied to my whole life by assholes who want to take advantage of me, and each band every time it works. I'm too trusting. Far too trusting. And that's too easy to take advantage of. It's not the first time it's happened, and it will most certainly happen again. But when my friend is the one who's taking advantage of me, it becomes worse.

So, in short, I'm done with this person. They may see this and want to apologize, but for right now, I don't want to hear it. I'm frustrated and annoyed, and want nothing to do with them. I wish them the best in future, but that's about it. And to their friends and the people sticking with them that I've connected with, I hope this doesn't tarnish our relationship, because I do consider you guys my friends. In the end, this was bound to happen, and I hope that my life here will be a bit better with the other group. Again, it'll probably end with me getting taken advantage of again, but at this point, I really don't care. I just needed to clear my conscious and get this issue off my chest.

So, that's all I have to say for now. I hope this creates no ill will towards anyone, but I just can't stand by this person anymore if I'm going to be treated like nothing. I wish you all the best.

HungryScorpion